Because I'm not HER

I know you're hurt

I know you're in pain

I know it's not easy to replace

hundreds of days and memories of her

And i know i can never take the special place

where you kept her in your heart

My time is short. My chances are small.

It's almost impossible.

But I tried.

Because the day I met you.

I know I am meant to love you.

And i want to take all your pain away

I want to heal all your wounds

I want to make you happy

I want to take care of you

I want to be the reason behind your smile

I want you to make you feel your worth

I want to stay beside you through thick or thin

I want to give you new memories to remember

I want to make you feel that you are not alone

I want to love you

But how can i?

When you never stop loving her?

When you always choose her over me?

When you never love me the way you love her?

When you choose to hurt me just to have her back?

When you never fight for what we have?

And no matter how small your hopes are

I always know it's her not me :(

And whenever you come close to her

She breaks your heart

But not only your heart

It also breaks mine :(

You're not just hurting yourself

You're also hurting me

You're hurting us

Until all i can gain is pain

and it's just too much to bear

Until all i can give is anger

and we're falling apart

Until it builds insecurities in me

and it made a fear out of me

That i'm never good enough for you

Because I AM NOT HER. :(

I hope you understand why I gave up.

And I want you to know It's still you in my heart.

I don't know for how long.

But let me have this chance to tell you

maybe for the last time

I love you.